Chiquita on the Continuation of my Soap Opera Tragedy Teenage Girl Life

I feel like I failed to properly conclude my last entry. I forgot to explain the title, for starters. When my friend (lets give my friend a name. Bestie.) When Bestie told me about all the rumors Smordan supposedly "heard" about me, she also informed me of something that I already sort of suspected would be the case. Bestie (who was also once a very close friend of Smordan's) told me that she doesn't even know the person who Smordan is anymore. She said, "I literally do not recognize her anymore. Its like she thought up this person in her head that she wanted to be in college, and now she's just acting. It makes losing her as a friend easier to deal with, because who she is now is not the friend I once knew and loved." As we were talking, Bestie kept repeating the same word, over and over again- FAKE. She said Smordan is trying to put on this act for everyone she meets in college, and only Bestie can see how fake it all is, because she knows the real Smordan.
While Smordan was saying all these horrible things about me, she managed to utterly shock Bestie with her performance. She actually had the audacity to act like she still cares about me and is just really worried about me. If she was so worried, wouldn't she call? Wouldn't it be a relief just to hear my voice? Wouldn't she want to say Nikki, say it ain't so! Yes. If she cared, she would do all these things. But she doesn't. I don't know where all these rumors originated, but I have a feeling they took root in the Devil's mind and have since blossomed into this elaborate story of my life as a vigilante. Unfortunately, another possible orchestrator of this cherade is Smordan herself. I just have this feeling in my gut that the Devil has finally gotten to her, after all this time of Smordan swearing to God above that she will never let her mother's wrath consume her. I think it's finally happened. Its sad really, the way things worked out.
I have something else I'd like to say about all this. The Devil is an upstand CHRISTIAN woman. She sends her son to Isaac Newton Christian Academy. She has coffee with all these church women. I've struggled with religion my entire life. I'd like to consider myself a christian, but I just don't do the whole church every Sunday and Wednesday thing. I believe in God, but I don't know about the whole Christianity thing. If this is how Christian people are- I want none of it. I mean, I'm sure she's been "saved" or what have you. A woman like this gets a ticket to heaven? I just don't see how that makes any sense. Aren't Christians supposed to love and care about everyone regardless? Ok, maybe they don't have to love every single person they meet. But whatever happened to "You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor." Yea. Christian my agnostic ass.